So it’s 11:16 PM. I had a very long day, filled with finals preparations and research presentations. But I encountered something that kinda just hurt me a lot, and I really need to get it out of my chest. Unfortunately, I don’t really have anyone that I can talk to about it. Thus, I figured I will vent here. So, I am not really out to anyone, and I really like this girl. We talked a lot before. She is the only person so far that I have met who have so much similar interests. We used to meet twice a week, study together, talk about our week, share new scientific findings, etc. I can’t began to explain how much those times we spent meant to me. She was kinda of my only “friend” in the school that we genuinely talked just because. Everyone else that I talked to daily wanted some school related help from me. Anyways, few weeks before, she began acting weird all of the sudden (idk maybe I read her wrong). Every time I would say something she would chose to play devils advocate. One of the days we were supposed to meet she decided to skip our meeting (though she was in school) with out telling me. **We usually tell each other when we can’t make it. So, because of that I chose not to talk to her anymore. I stopped going to any of our meeting days. Today I saw her, she looked at me, and I felt that she was hurt( again maybe I am reading her wrong). She ignored me completely (which I get). But, yah. I feel bad. because I really care about her a lot as a friend. Maybe I overreacted. I feel awful.
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