People say that I'm in #spectacular shape considering my age and other factors including medical that would debilitate others under particular circumstances.I say that it's #thegodinme that sustains me. Keeps me strong and wakes me everyday. I've been used, abused, cheated on.
I've witnessed deaths of friends and close family members, choosing to remain by their sides rather than entrust them to the care of others. In return, received speculation and harsh accusations that were out of my control.
I've been intubated resulting from a chronic pneumothorax, had a 3.5cm meningioma removed which resulted in my suffering from grand mal seizures for six years straight. (Wouldn't wish a seizure on my worst enemy.😔). I've suffered and hospitalized, more times than I can count, from asthma, as recently as last week Friday. Feels like I'm a fish out of water🐟🌊 until I get some type of #medicinal relief in the form of liquid with regular uses of inhalers and nebulizer treatments.
I've lost thousands of dollars helping people and irresponsible #spending habits... That if I would have known... Or rather #accepted then, what I know today, I would have not #chosen to help those people I did help. Now I have none to waste... Those very #same people would not, could not, did not and do not regard me in the same way. In fact, if I'm #suffering today, they would not be concerned enough about my health, safety and general all around well-being 💁. Nevertheless, I remain strong, certain that the day will come when these #persons will come to remember these things, when they're pitted to go through trials themselves. I hope they are rewarded in kind...
Strength comes from #experience and experience through trial and error. It is the #greatest teacher we will ever have.
This I know for certain. Learning from these experiences is detrimental... No one needs a repetition of costly mistakes. The idea is to progress in positivity and optimism until success is reached... Which is #determined by how much we #remember about our pasts. Not only remembering but to never forget. As to not make the same mistakes in later days.
So what's next? What's next is to move forward... Move on...